You know how I feel?

Like I'm dying.

I'd be in bed, but can't sleep. Eating a lean pocket was pointless. Surprised I didn't puke from eating it. I could feel food in my throat when pushing shit out in the crapper.

That's a good way to lose weight, just puke it all up. All without putting your finger down your throat.

The feeling of dying, might be depression. It's called evolution. Your depression will evolve into something better, until it finally kills you.