Barney will most likely be moving out tomorrow. Some people can tolerate feeling angry and agitated, that is at the same time. Not me. If I knew he would make me feel this way, I wouldn’t of agreed to take him home.

The only training he has, is potty trained. He might of potty trained himself, by sitting in his own urine and shit though.

Somebody that knows how to take care of dogs, can get him. That isn’t an insane asshole.

I prefer to avoid agitation. There’s no magic drug, as far as I know, to get rid of it. Zyprexa doesn’t. Exercise probably doesn’t either. The agitation is most likely for an irrational reason.

It can also be, because of depression. They claim exercise helps that. You can exercise without a dog. Getting a dog, when you are so depressed, you are agitated, is not a good idea. Apparently the dog, is what will trigger the agitation.

Not sleeping as long as I usually do, also doesn’t help. Going back to bed after taking him outside, probably doesn’t help either. I have zero energy for a dog, or any other animal.

She can be mad at me all she wants. Not everybody can take care of a puppy. And he’s not the only animal bothering me either. Any animal wanting a lot of attention, bothers me. It’s only a matter of time, before her cat(s) start bothering me. Being able to sleep, and go to the bathroom, in peace, might prevent any other animals from bothering me.

Chibi agitated me, and I have zero idea of why. The only thing I can think of, is somebody got all angry at her for looking at them while eating or something. After that, she caused severe agitation. I couldn’t even pet her. Doesn’t matter how long ago, that event took place, the agitation is still here, and she isn’t. If I dream about her, I get agitated. I vaguely recall punching the bed while sleeping, not sure what I was dreaming, I don’t recall that part. Just that I was punching the bed in my sleep.

Well, I failed whatever I was supposed to learn. Off to recycling I go, when I die. Reincarnation has already been proven. And, if I can barely eat food, without stomach doing weird shit, I might not live that long. Some people have memory from their previous life, usually goes away when they are an adult.

Lucky for me, I have zero memory of anything before this life. It’s probably a good thing. As, I probably wouldn’t still be alive. I’m guessing I made horrible choices in my previous lives.

If somebody is angry at you, don’t answer the phone, if they call. Got to go to bed, so if she calls again tonight, I’ll be sleeping.

Not everybody deserves love, I don’t.

Have you ever felt agitation? I don’t know how to describe it. It’s not a thought, it’s an actual feeling, like anxiety and depression, those both are in your stomach. Or at least my stomach. Agitation is almost like a sore.

The doctor believes more of what I say, then my mom.

Now where is the agitation feeling? In my stomach too? I don’t recall. As, I avoid it like the plague. I think it is my stomach. It’s a feeling, like being punched, you can feel. I’m not talking about just in your head. Like love, you can’t psychically feel, as far as I know.

So, I only feel three things? Depression, anxiety, and agitation. Great way to live. Oh wait, four things, guilt. Guild and bad can be the same thing.

There’s no cure for depression. Oh wait, I can think of one. Depends what state you are in, if it’s legal. And it’s probably not legal in any state, that might only apply for cancer and stuff. Apparently depression, isn’t terminally ill.

Barney can't replace Tonka

I had zero intention of actually getting a dog. She claims, I’ll feel worse if I give him to somebody else. Well, probably, but I’ll be able to stay in bed 24/7.

I feel horrible, depressed, and crying a lot.

No picture, I’m too lazy to take one with my camera. He likes scratching and whining at the door, if you don’t pay 100% attention to him.

Putting him in his crate, is worse, he throws a big fit. So, wiping your ass, you’ll hear him the entire time. I doubt he wants outside every time he does it, he doesn’t even need to go out every two hours, not at her house.

Everything I do with him, reminds me of Tonka.

At least, I have even less of an appetite now. The weight should keep coming off.

I know he doesn’t need to go out constantly, if you go to bed, he’s fine till 7 AM, the last time out around 8 PM. Didn’t even get off my bed. I closed the door though, so he doesn’t get in the trash while I’m sleeping.

He’s basically a rescue, from Texas. The shelter there was going to murder him. He has urine stains on his feet. The hair has to grow out, the groomer said. She had to shave most of his hair off, he had lots of mats.

The shelter we got him from, neutered him, but didn’t give him a bath before. They should of cleaned him up and shaved him. They didn’t ask for her to pay to adopt him, at his vet visit.

He’s going to her vet soon, also need to find out how much he weighs, and how much he’s supposed to. They said he weighs 12 pounds, who knows if that’s right.

If you ignore him, he might chew on his bone. I also moved his bed.

I’ll be going to bed early again, I barely slept. I was worried about him getting up. I did go back to bed after taking him out, for 3 or so hours.

Not to mention, she said she might not be alive in 30 years. She reminded me nobody lives forever, currently. My life will 100% suck when she dies. Nobody else cares about me as much as her. Typing that, resulted in crying. And she claims I don’t love her. Do you cry if somebody dies and you don’t love them? I can’t imagine her dying in 30 years, would bother me, if I didn’t love her.

There’s no way to walk a different way, I still have to exit my door, and go down the hallway. I guess I could jump out the window, that wouldn’t end well. And, then I’d be somewhere I walked Tonka. So, that wouldn’t work either.

The doctor, claims it’s common to feel this way when getting a dog after one dies. And claims I’ll feel better as time goes by. Maybe, I didn’t say how bad I feel.

It’s as bad as the first time I went to the nut house. Well, the time I was there for 3 months, as an adolescent. It’s not a feeling you ever want to feel. I thought getting a dog was supposed to be happy. I just get regret, that I didn’t walk Tonka that much, that is long walks. I couldn’t keep her at home at the end.

Also, regret for doing nothing on the family vacation to Newport, Oregon. I was sick, but I still should of done more. Barely got any pictures. My grandpa is dying, so there won’t be another family vacation with him. Grandma might have something wrong with her too.

Good way to live your life, regret. You’ll get absolutely nothing done.

Laowa 17mm Bargain Lens

I got that lens on sale from B&H for $150, you can always get that price from Kenmore Camera and directly from Laowa.

Laowa 17mm pictures taken with Olympus E-M5 Mark II

Two taken at f4, and one at f1.8, the first picture is f1.8.

Focusing isn’t hard, don’t know why they invented auto focus. I just tap somewhere in the LCD, and click the button that is assigned to show the magnifier.

Might be harder in sun, using the EVF. I don’t recall, if you can move the “focus” area with the screen, when looking through the EVF. I think you can on the E-M10 Mark II, not that I could get it to work. I still have that camera, I don’t plan on getting rid of it. It’s a backup.

The RAW files are on that link too. A flash was used for all photos. I don’t see the problem with using a flash.

If somebody offers me money for the E-M10 Mark II, I might sell it. But, I won’t offer it to anybody, they’d have to ask about it.

My Panasonic 12-32mm might be useless now, yeah it can do 12mm, but manual focusing and backing up is more satisfying.

You know what else is satisfying? Having your balls squished.

You need f1.8, so you can step it down, and get sharper photos. Who needs f1.8 on a 17mm lens? Well, maybe I do, if I take a nude photo of myself. How do I tilt the camera to make my balls have bokeh?

I Gambled And Lost

Bought an iPhone 8 from Woot. The screen has a bunch of hairline cracks. The earpiece doesn’t work. That is the earpiece doesn’t get very loud, so it’s useless, if you can only barely hear the other person.

That’s two phones with issues from Woot, my sister got an iPhone 6S, the battery was useless. I think she sent it back, good idea, probably would of found out more was wrong with it, if she got the battery replaced. I was thinking about replacing the screen on the 8, not a anymore.

I thought she just got unlucky and got a bad one. Now, it’s two phones with issues, they clearly don’t test the phones, or even look at it. Who wants a phone with a bunch of hairline cracks? Not me. I guess, I didn’t read it right, thought only the body would be beat up. Also, wouldn’t expect anything to not work right.

I had to rush to restore my iPhone 7, the counselor is calling today. Oh, and the earpiece works fine on it. So, it’s not T-Mobile. The iPhone 8 is supposed to be fully unlocked. I emailed support like their site said, to ask to return it. Since it has a battery. It’ll be a week or longer before I get my money back.

I’ll never buy anything with a screen from Woot again. Better, I’ll never buy any electronic from Woot.

Oh and I think she said she emailed the wrong address the first time, most likely what their site said, I did the same thing. So that’ll delay it too.

Got a return label. Funny, how they said they don’t have a replacement to send me. I didn’t want a replacement anyways.

Hopefully they can open it without destroying the label inside it, that they said to put in it. And hopefully it really is reset, I told it to reset. I’m not ripping it open to check.

RIP Sofie

Her tumor got huge, and she couldn’t pee. She claimed she didn’t have to do it yet. But, how is she supposed to pee? Sounds like she did have to do it.

I’m shocked she didn’t bite anybody. If her tumor got bigger. She was crazy about food, and more so at the end. She didn’t even hurt Bodhi, when she’s snapped at him. I’m shocked if any dog in that much pain doesn’t bite somebody.

If Tonka had a big tumor, I’d be shocked if she didn’t bite somebody. I’d probably be the one to get bit, but I wouldn’t dislike her or anything for it.

I guess, I could get a dog now. Not today. Or next week, or probably this month. Maybe never.

Bodhi hasn’t noticed or figured out she’s not coming back yet. Which is a good thing. You don’t want your dog to get depressed or upset. They might stop eating. Well, Bodhi probably won’t stop eating. He loves food. Also, he loves all the people he’s around. So did Sofie.

Sucks, I didn’t get to see her before it happened. I didn’t go over there yesterday.

She only had her three years, I think she was 10 when she got her. Her previous people are fucking assholes, they had her, her entire life, and dropped her off at Julia’s Jungle. Claiming that they were moving, and no dogs allowed. Why not give her to family or a friend? Oh, because they knew she chewed doors up? Assholes. A dog is a commitment. You don’t get rid of your wife, if she starts doing something you don’t like. Or maybe you do.

Hopefully those people never get a pet again. She didn’t deserve to be gotten rid of ate age 10. Or any age. I can see why people give up puppies, usually older people, that aren’t active enough, and the dog needs somebody active. Waiting till they’re 10, just makes you a complete asshole.

Tonka would have felt horrible if I got rid of her. Well, she was at my mom’s, that made me feel horrible. Not enough room in my apartment, for what she was doing. I should have just got rid of everything.

I learned very quickly, the dog was more important than my stuff.

Apparently those people didn’t learn anything.

No crying yet, I was about to earlier. I’ll probably do it while sleeping. That’s the best time to do it.

Can you make a store with Hugo?

You can make anything with Hugo. Use Shopify’s Lite plan, and you can make a store with any site.

You can get cheap hosting from BUYSHARED.

I don’t have Shopify Lite, or enough stock of anything to make a store, so I can’t answer how you would do it.

Maybe modify my to make a new product to sell.

Modifying the script would be easy, just make it take another argument, with the path. Or better, just use xx/post-or-product.

Well, anything that isn’t dynamic. Like a forum, you can’t. You could modify Hugo to output PHP sites. That would defeat the entire point of it.

Sorry I'm Autistic

Do any ladies not mind dating an autistic man? Society frowns upon it.

You know who would? A trans woman, society frowns upon that too.

Now, I can say “Sorry I’m Autistic” to everybody. Instead of saying hi, I’ll say that.

Also, how can that guy be a teacher? In the Podcast. He’s not dangerous? As in assaulting people that are loud?

Well, shoot, it looks like I’m Insanely Autistic.

Apparently you have to go to Utah to get a diagnoses. Isn’t that my doctor’s job? Or did he quit?

Just prescribe four Zyprexa 3 times a day. How much is mine? 5 mg? So 60 mg a day, better make that 500 mg a day.

I’ll lose weight if they do that, I won’t be able to move anymore, that means getting up to eat. Might end up dead, but nobody will care. The doctor won’t even get a day in jail. The government will say “Good riddance to that scumbag that we give not very much money to”.

Now, go Make America Great Again, by voting for Trump in 2020. If it leads to a revolution, then Trump will go down into history books, as the president that caused a revolution. Except, the revolution will fail, he’ll just nuke em. Possibly nuking himself too. But, that’ll Make America Great Again.

Is that a good thing to be put in a history book for? Causing a revolution?

RIP Baby

I think that’s what they called her. I was/am an ass and got mad at calling her a baby.

I called Tonka a baby. But she was my baby.

No more animals alive that I grew up with. That resulted in a crying session. Probably crying about all the animals, even though I was mostly thinking about Tonka.

Any animals dying will most likely result in crying now. Doesn’t matter if I like them.

She got skinny, got stuck behind the freezer, couldn’t move, she was dragging herself around. Apparently she also peed on herself. She basically was dying in a brutal way.

If we kept Tonka alive, something similar could have happened to her. She was still eating when they murdered her. Most dogs stop eating when the end comes. I think eating made her feel a tiny bit better.

Sounds like a war outside.

Three dead animals in one year, that’s pretty brutal.

Old cat is dying

She got really skinny, and doesn’t seem to be going upstairs anymore. She was going upstairs everyday. The other day she was just laying outside the laundry room, looking down.

If she dies before next year, that’s three dead animals in one year.

Apparently cats get skinny when they are about to die.

She was a kitten when we had Buddy, we didn’t have him as a puppy, adult when we got him. They used to lay together in the sunroom at a previous house.

Crop circles

They might be made with sound, at least the ones not made by humans. Watch In Search Of, the UFO’s episode.

They found some kind or radio radiation in the circle they went to investigate. Some Dr. guy.

And in his lab, he proved you can use sound to make formations, by putting sand on a metal plate, and sending sound waves to it. It was 1.21, I assume the sound frequency, or the radio frequency.

Here’s something about crop circles and sound.

The show said, you’d need a huge amount of power to do it.

Looks like that article further proves it. Didn’t read all of it yet.

Philo’s VOD sucks, I didn’t hear everything the doctor had to say, and after the commercial was over, it didn’t show the rest of what he said. Basically cut him off from talking, and I’ll never know what he was saying. I might of if I read the subtitle fast enough. But, I want to hear it too.

I’ll keep Philo anyways, it’s dirt cheap. Compared to Comcast.

More downtime

Appears to have been rebooted again, took 37 minutes to reboot. Or whatever happened, but uptime says around an hour of uptime. Same thing happened yesterday, and some days before yesterday.

The only way to find out anything would be by emailing BuyVM. I’m too lazy to do that. Also, I’m too lazy to switch providers. Most providers don’t offer DirectAdmin for free. And most providers with block storage charge more. There’s only one provider that’s around the same price, can’t remember if DirectAdmin is included. No guarantee it’s anymore reliable. If you want reliable, you probably have to pay more.

The Twitter feed on their Client Area, doesn’t say anything. I don’t actually go to Twitter, it’s embedded in the Client Area on the main page, you don’t even have to login. I don’t participate in social shitting.

Enjoy the free downtime, that’s included too.

What's wrong with China and Russia knowing Aliens exist?

I can see them knowing we have 9 UFOs could be a problem, but why Aliens? They won’t bomb us if they tell everybody Aliens exist. They could bomb us if they found out we have UFOs that work, or at least one that works.

There’d be no Storming Area 51 movement if they’d just tell us what they know about Aliens. Instead of lying over and over again. Anybody with half a brain knows Aliens exist. Apparently the majority of Americans don’t have half a brain.

Also, somebody that worked at Area 51, already told everybody that they have 9 UFOs, I’m sure Russia and China know, and probably already knew.

So saying China and Russia aren’t telling us anything, doesn’t matter, we probably already know what they know/have.

Also, the US is run by Russia, so I’d reckon that makes them our Ally.

Bob Lazar is a hero

Being raided by the feds, two times, proves his story for me. Then again, I’d probably believe it without that happening.

His tires have been shot out while driving on the freeway.

That’s the only thing Trump didn’t lie about, that the US isn’t any better then Russia. People telling people what they know about Aliens, sometimes results in them “committing suicide”. Anybody with half a brain knows that’s a lie.

What’s funny, is he somehow got out of S4 or whatever, with element 115. That wouldn’t happen at Amazon. S4 or whatever it’s called, is near Area 51. You get to go on a bus with blackened or no windows. After you take a plane to Area 51.

He claims the US has 9 UFOs in possession, that we didn’t make. They can’t even reverse engineer the power source it has. At least one of them flies, so if you see a UFO, it might be the one the US obtained. He doesn’t know how they got them. Apparently they didn’t tell him that.

He wouldn’t talk about element 115.

I’m still wondering how he got element 115 out of a military base the US said didn’t exist for a long time.

And the US is right, it’s easy to hide the secret, as the majority of brainless zombies won’t believe it. They will deny it till they die, and then when dead.

Oh, and if you storm Area 51, the last thing you’ll see is a bomber. According to the military’s Twitter account, they deleted it. But it’s the internet, nothing gets deleted from it. That reminds me, there’s an App that makes it possibly easy to download entire sites. Does it only do it once or can it run on a schedule? Except, the reviews say it’s a pain to configure. Might as well use a free program. Need that for the missed connections on Craigslist, so I can read flagged posts.

Also, Trump isn’t the third antichrist, he doesn’t want global peace. Or maybe he will someday, then you know he’s a liar, and therefore the third antichrist.

I don’t have Hulu so can’t watch the rest of that. And it was kind of boring. And impossible to listen to at her house. Glad I don’t usually watch TV over there. It’s a waste of bandwidth.

If you don’t mind getting blown up, join the Storm Area 51 movement. Is that a quick death?

Also, what’s so secretive on Area 51 that they will blow their own people up for trying to find out? Why aren’t civilians allowed to know?

I didn’t think Hitler was an antichrist though, just an awful human, like the majority of people.

There’s only one way to change the government, movements won’t do shit, some guy on another show said a revolution is the only way to solve anything in the US. He was right. You can elect whoever you want, but it won’t solve anything. The US military would gladly bomb all the civilians if everybody tried raiding Area 51. No more Mc. Donalds for them. Unless, they plan on making it themselves. And building a new Mc. Donalds.

Dogs love me

When I got to her house, Bode was outside. When he came inside, he went directly where the coats are, and smelled my sweater/jacket, and I called him over, and he ran over.

He was super excited and happy to see me.

He doesn’t even know me that well.

If she ever gets a puppy again, when he’s older, he will probably be fine. He is a lab after all. Still don’t know how all labs have similar personalities. Breeding doesn’t explain it. Most people have a completely different personality. Then again, I don’t know any people.

Nobody has a personality like me. That’s why everybody hates me and wants me dead. That might happen soon, there might be something wrong with my stomach. works

I could share the script, but I’m lazy. Most of the code stolen and modified from

It uses random.randrange if the filename exists, it puts -randomnumber in the filename. You could use a while loop that starts at 1 until it doesn’t exist. But that could take a long time, if you have 5k test files. Or find the last file with the name and add one to whatever it is.

I like the random way better. That makes it very unorganized, just like my apartment.

Oops, forgot to add “draft: false” to the headers.

There we go, it should work now.

Still requires adding the body manually, and possibly editing the title.

The URL generation should be right now. And it’s right now, after four attempts.

Everything works finally, had to fix the date header.

NGINX is a dick, it’ll download it if the url is /blog/2019/11/, it ignores the -works part.

They Say That Like Its a Bad Thing

It’s funny how when people might be livestock to Aliens, it’s a bad thing. But chickens and cows and turkeys and pigs being livestock isn’t a bad thing.

What’s the difference?

That was on Bob Lazar, the Netflix documentary. I missed a bunch, as I was in the bathroom puking.

It’s kind of boring. But, I’m going to watch what I missed anyways. Got to guess where it was before I was puking, was at my mom’s, and I didn’t pause it. It was also in her profile most likely. There was 11 minutes left before I went home. I missed more than that though.

Puking probably from not drinking any water today. Still can’t drink any water, the filter needed to be replaced, so refilling the pitcher now. Stupid water tester doesn’t work right, said 000 last time I checked, you are supposed to change at 006, it was 02x, don’t remember exactly. I tested it, because I was drinking some, and it tasted horrible.

The water started tasting bad a while ago, but the useless tester said 000, taste is more reliable than the “tester”.

If I’m livestock, I better keep eating unhealthy. They won’t want me.

Grandpa Had a Stroke

It was a “small” stroke, apparently most people should recover fully from such a stroke. I went with my mom to see him tonight. If they did one of the tests on me, I’d fail. I might be able to read what they wanted him to read. But asking me what’s going on in a picture, I’d most likely fail.

Nobody believes anything I say, so there’s no point in going to the doctor or doing anything.

Apparently dogs live in the moment, the reason they don’t stay upset about being away from their mom. I must live in the past then. I’d probably be dead if I lived in the moment, considering there is no moment.

If using Hugo, compress the public folder with the slowest option, GZIP works. Had to re-download Keka. I’m too lazy to use a terminal. I am terminally insane though. That costs money if you get it from the App Store. At least it would be worth money, non like Maxel, a download manager that can’t actually download anything

Well, I should probably watch the new Ancient Aliens. Something about storming Area 51.

After I save this, compress it, and upload it, and extract it, and move it into place.


This is turning out to be one shitty year, two dead dogs, and now my grandpa is having issues. He might go to rehab, he’s staying another night at the hospital. They think he had a stroke based on the dizziness and leaning to one side, trouble standing up.

He’s apparently on oxygen now too.

The stroke could be related to his heart problems. Oxygen can be too.

Not sure what the point in doing Thanksgiving will be, since he probably won’t be able to come.

No WordPress Here

Enjoy trying to hack it now. Hugo is nice, had to modify a Python script to get it converted correctly, with [gallery] support.

exitwp-for-hugo is the script, modified here.

The modified script doesn’t use html2text, didn’t remove everything related to it in though.

Use that script at your own risk. You might have issues with your CSS if you have more than one [gallery] on the same post.

#gallery-1 {
#gallery-1 .gallery-item{
#gallery-1 img{
    border:2px solid #cfcfcf
#gallery-1 .gallery-caption{

[caption] isn’t supported and neither are [code] tags. You can replace the [code] tags by editing the config, if you use <pre>, you can use highlight.js.

For the archives, see this.

My working code below:

            {{- $stamped_terms := slice -}}
            {{- range $term, $value := .Site.Taxonomies.month -}}
                {{- $last_stamp := (index $value.Pages.ByDate.Reverse 0).Date.Unix -}}
                {{- $term_stamp := dict "term" $term "stamp" $last_stamp -}}
            {{- $stamped_terms = $stamped_terms | append $term_stamp -}}
            {{- end -}}
            {{ range $stamp := sort $stamped_terms "stamp" "desc" -}}
            {{- $key := index $stamp "term" -}}
            {{- $value := index $.Site.Taxonomies.month $key -}}
                {{- $first_post := index $value.Pages.ByDate 0 -}}
                <a href="/blog/{{ $key }}/">{{ $first_post.Date.Format "January 2006" }} ({{ $value.Count }})</a>
            {{ end }}

New posts, will require manually adding month and year to the header. There could be a GUI/frontend for it, I’m not aware of any. TextEdit works fine, my other text editor has no spell checking. The one I use for code.

Does Hugo support importing WordPress?

If not, there's Publii, which is a static HTML CMS, that has a built in WP importer.

I'm to lazy to make my own import script. And to lazy to finish my Textpattern WP import plugin. I screwed it up by trying to get the files importing to work. And, I haven't looked at the code for a long ass time.

If you want a contact page, like the Complaints page, that won't work with static HTML. You could rig up a script. But once again, I'm lazy.

Nice, there's a plugin that'll do it for you. A WordPress plugin.

I'd rather use Hugo, since I already have it installed.

It's a pain to hack static HTML.

The plugin doesn't work. Gets a server error, I'm not changing anything to make it run. Like increasing the execution time. There's a Python script that uses the XML export file, that I just made.

Looks like the script worked. Ran it on my desktop, too lazy to see if it works in macOS. You need Python 2, I didn't have python2-pip installed, it failed with Python 3 pip. Guess, I should of read it more before skipping to the pip install command.